Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Confused young thing..

So i decided to write about my friends life because i not only do not know what to say anymore but i also don't know what to think anymore.

So my friends V had a girlfriend by the name of T (by the way real initials i couldn't think of any others). From what i know they were together for almost a yr or so and they were in love. Now for those who are reading and don't understand how to women could be involved and so on let me just point out to you something. Two women possess an emotional connection they understand each other's needs and wants they know how to hold and caress you and so on. N e way...When i met V she was a vibrant young thing, she was always happy and into life and so on. Then T decided to work with us. They never worked the same shift but they crossed each others paths. Eventually something was said and their relationship went down hill.

T then decides to go off to the military...she frequently contacts V. Some how V finds out T has moved on and now has a new girlfriend. Now this is where the problem begins. T is V's first love, partner and girlfriend. Shes never been with a guy besides one time and she said he basically just wanted to have sex with her. Blah.. Now, V comes to me saying she no longer is a Lesbian but rather she is straight and doesn't want n e thing to do with girls. In the mean time she finds herself a boyfriend named Africa..

So she goes on a date with the boy aims me crying that she was so uncomfortable and they he kiss her n she wasn't feeling it. Yet she continues to see him .Well the other day she gives her virginity to him and it hasn't even been 3 wks. One minute the girl is all about women the next she hates them and then shes going straight?!

So i get mad and tell the girl, listen your young and confused this is your first yr in college maybe you should find out who you are before you decided to date either sex. and ps if you love pussy and yet guys give you butterflies that means ur bi...n e (not really) but u know what i mean if not i will further explain myself in a email if you want. but she agreed yet she makes the descision to sleep with then guy now shes all goo goo ga ga over him. my main concern is that what if he brakes her heart? shes going to feel alone in the world...she will be angry with both sexes. agggggggg idk n e more n my hand is hurting ...n e way please let me know..

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

my sexuality....drum roll please n dont judge me

So the other day I was on YouTube and some chick was talking bout how she doesn't get the concept of bisexuality, another tried to explain it, and of course some bashed on the topic and so on.

ps. i always find myself debating with stright and lesbian people about respecting SOME bisexuals

So I got to thinking that there are really 2 types of bisexuals…as i was corrected (PANSEXUAL) ;)

A. The confused and greedy bisexual B. The love/no gender oriented bisexual

So ...type A. sometimes is confused about their sexuality. They are either in the middle of trying either sex for the first time, deciding whether or not they like it or if it is what they feel inside is right. Also, this is the person who experiences sex from both the male and the female and isn't really looking for a relationship. They simply enjoy the pleasure they receive from either sex. I say either bcuz the sex between 2 females, 2 males and a male and are female aren’t even comparable. They are more likely to be on the DL and not open to the thought of being wit the same sex for any long period of time they simply just want sex.But n e way type A. is that type who is most likely to mess with both genders at the same time. Dating one gender and fucking wit another getting caught, spreading diseases and giving us a bad name. They can be physically attracted but most likely they look for nothing more then that.

Type B. Is the person who is infatuated wit the thought of love and never considers gender apart of a physical description of their type. This person is attracted to both sexes beyond physicality. They look for love and companionship between themselves and their significant other. They desire to be involved emotionally, mentally, spiritually and physically. They know and are confident that they are attracted 2 both the male and that female.

So for those who say they hate/dislike those who r bisexual I hope u may reconsider ur thoughts on bisexuality. I know I cannot change some1s opinions but I hope that I can give u a different perspective. If u have something to say or add plz do so...

me in a nut shell

please do not criticize me because i know my biggest flaws include spelling, grammar and punctuation

hey,
so before i ramble on about any and everything i want to tell you who i am and what im about. So im 22 years old and i am currently in college. i study business and i hope one day to enjoy owning and running my own hair salon. After college i plan on going to LA for cosmetology school and to pay off my debt (which my mother got me into, thats another story for another time). After i have paid, i hope, most of my debt off i will then move back down south to be with my family.
My little biography
i was forced into this world by a man who couldnt resist the temptations of my mothers body. and of course she gave in. and so i was conceived in 1986 to a mother who modeled, worked hard and was very book smart. only problem she had was partying and being a follower. as for my father he was no where to be found yet he was right there. on a side note, my mother never told him about me. Yrs pass by and i was raised in a church going home. my family is very family oriented as well. anyway, i come to realize my family is beyond dysfunction; nothing but alcoholics and lazy ass people. So, in 6th grade i finally decided i've had enough of my mother and that maybe i need a father in my life so i demand to meet this man who harassed my mother for her goods. He's a short stubby dude who has an annoying laugh but i came to love him until he chose to go through my things. (i have this thing about my privacy, im willing to tell all if you just ask and of course he didnt). a yr goes by and finally i call this dude and tell him to come and get me my mother is getting on my nerves. so i become close with his family and life goes on. Jr high was fun..mmhmmm...High school!!!! need i say more. Shall i just say i am a very well behaved child so anyway i lost my virginity and had a miscarriage, til this day my mom has no clue about it. i graduated and am now in college. 4yrs have gone by all in one breathe i can say i disowned my mother, i live on my own, struggled and have changed tremendously. I am no longer a hetero only now i am bi (that too is another story). and here i am today writing my life story so my baby sister can read it and enjoy it and learn from it.....well i'll let you go on to read others blogs come back i have a lot of interesting things to say.

ps i would also liek to say if in the future you want to hear more about something i mention pls email me and let me know i would be glad to state my opinion or give advice