Friday, August 21, 2009

the RULES of HOLLERING N DATING Ms Sassy n MzDom

1. Check your breath first and foremost
2. make sure u don look like u jus came from high school gym class with ur sweats over ur jeans cuz u was too lazy to change
2.5 i might ask you for id if you look that young
3. plz don send ur friend ova askin if im gay, taken or sayin my boy/ girl wanna holla!
4. dont try to holla with some lame ass "did u hurt when you fell outta heaven" bullshit
5. if i do agree to givin u my AIM don make it seem like i gave u the digets n the address to my crib cuz IF we go out im meetin u somewhere
6. all terms are subject to change. just cuz we were talkin for an hour last nite, dont expect it every damn nite
7. plz do not fall in love with me after a month of talkin to me i kno my game is titer then the next touch me not stud n my swagga is fierce!
8. Dont think that just cuz we talkin you supposed to meet my friends n fam. u aint permanent yet!
8.5 or if u do meet my friends its only cuz secretly i want their approval
8.9 and when u do, that dont mean you can add em on myspace, facebook, twitter, tagged... none of dat
9. If you DO get the digits, dont text me on some bullshit. "hey" no fck that i got shit to do
10. if i invite u to my crib n u spendin the night bcuz i fall aslp don mean u can go holl@my roommate n when she denies u come back n try to get some from me! hahaha
11. when u get my # don b callin me for some phone sex on our 1st or sec third or any convo for tha matter u aint my girl/man
11.5 or on some "i wanna fall asleep with you on the phone" whore u aint payin my got damned bill. *click*
12. plz don hit me up as soon as my away message goes down or the second i get out of work @3 u callin me @ 3:01 "are u off yet"
12.5 or show up for my lunch break talkin bout "i thought we'd do lunch" how do u know my damn schedule!?
13. dont b callin all the chains in the city tryin to find me at work cuz i didnt answr ur text or phone call BITCH! im working!
14. If we met on Myspace... just cuz i gave u some play dont mean start changin names and statuses about me, or commentin on every pic i have. stalker
15. if we talkin n u half way across the world imma need for u to be more realistic about the situation less im movin there..its neva gonna work!
15.5 and even if we live down the street it STILL may not work
16. bcuz we talkin don mean u need to bfriend me on all the social networks there are (FB,MyS,Bebo,Migente,BP,Tagged,DL, Yahoo,AIM, and n e otha site out thea)
17. The first few dates, we goin dutch on the bill. i aint payin ur way. i dont even like u for real.
17.5 ps im bored thas tha only reason y im goin out wit u LETs not even call this a date
18. when and IF we fck, dont try to cuddle, i dont love u. we can work on that but yehhhh...
18.5 afta we fuck kno u not spendin the nt less u cookin for me n don touch me afta i come out the shower
18.9 and even after then, u still might have to leave, my friends is comin over
19.if i havent started callin u my boo n we fckin then ur title is offically BC
19.5 so dont give yourself your own title.
19.9 or tellin ppl ur my boo gf, bf lover booski, bff dont even tell ppl u kno me
20. By this time if u still around... u prolly deserve to be with me... after u shave.
20.5 now imma need u to shave brush ur teeth and do ur hair at this very moment cuz i kno u look a hot mess right now
21. Dont hold my hand when we go out, or try to hug/kiss me in public. i might see my future while we're out
21. 5 if we go to the club don b holdin my waist n walkin up my ass when im browsin the club fuck im tryin to make it look like im alone
22. Dont go thru my phone cuz *phone rings* hold up thats my baby right here... u know where the door is.
23. dont b makin all the playist on ur pages lovey doavey songs cuz u think we got a love jones goin nicca i said u THINK! cuz aint shit goin on bsides ur head game!
23.5 ol 'i bet u think this song is about u' ass

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

IMMA NEED U ...

im bored but for n e one who is interested in me (tryin to holla) this is for u.
i just got out of a crazy long distance relationship (see blog suicide and relationships) so im not looking for nothin too serious.

BUT..........

IMMA NEED for u to 1st and foremost to be 21 plus ( if i cant go on a date with u to the bar or go clubbing with u SMH then idk wha to do with u)ps i kno theres otha shit to do but don get mad when i say im goin to the club u wanna....ooo... wait ... u cant go

IMMA NEED for you to have a job! im not tryin to support u and me while im in school and u at home in ur moms crib playin video games all fuckin day!

IMMA NEED for u to go to school cuz i cant b a college graduate n u a high school drop out

IMMA NEED u to also have so serious aspirations and goals (short and long) goin on

IMMA NEED you not to judge me

IMMA NEED you to appreciate me for me

IMMA NEED TO BE SANE (no crazy possessive bitches)

IMMA NEED you to be about family cuz im all about mines (n no,i have no children)

IMMA NEED to be close to me, visit more then once a month if i cant make it to see u every so often and vice versa then this will neva work i need to cuddle once n a while

IMMA NEED STUDS to be intune with ur softer side im not fuckin with hard studs

IMMA NEED to love a girl with curves, thick, juicey curves (im at my thickest right now but when i get back to my reg size im still thicker then a milk shake baby!)

IMMA NEED u not to a lazy ass THANKS

thas all for now cuz i feel like im askin for too much

the topic of a stud

so yesterday me n my besty was havin a girls day when we was talkin bout studs n she mentioned if she was to date a girl she wants a soft stud..so she told me to write a blog bout it! here we go

MY OPINION n i didnt ask for ur negativity....
1st and foremost a stud is a lesbian n ALL women can act this way straight or gay so don get it twisted

I've messed with the fem, the diva, the stem, the butch bitch (as i say), the soft stud and the hard stud and i consider myself a fem/ tomboi.

in my opinion imma say out them all i cant stand to date a LESBIAN who says do not call me she, her, girl, ms, say i cant call u by ur name u wanna go by ur nick name bitch! i will smack u n call u wha i plz, ok! nosa i don hit, but imma call u wha eva comes out my mouth 1st. But ur a women above everything else u got tits, pussy and female features n if u dont bcuz ur considering FTM or alrdy started transitioning ur in a whole diff category so don b offended. So ima call u wha yo momma, granny, auntie , uncles n 'em call yo ass ya heard. IdK y but tha jus makes me mad if i wanted to date a man i would u kno.

To be honest i will neva date a hard stud eva again..not my thing. i need a female who can b dominant yet she know she is a women n is sensitive towards me. if she wanna b all hard round ha brahs or otha pplz then i don give 2 shits lol. jus don tell me wha u wanna b called. Don get me wrong u can def tell me u prefer to b called boi but don get mad when eva i say W.E GIRL ! cuz i always say tha.

CALLING U DADDY! oh i don mind though if u doin ur thing in the bed room or u kno im n the mood n im tryin to get u to understand im horny all the fuckin time n u need to help me out like right now!

SHAVING plz women!!!!!!! OMG i cant stand dating someone who doesn't shave. WAit u kno wha do ur thing but dont let it get to the length where i can braid it plz trim the fuck out of tha shit!

So i think in the end we or preferably the studs with tha mentality of a man rather then a boyish girl need to consider a change in lifestyle (FTM) if they look at themselves as more of a man then a women. n if u are completely comfortable as a women studding it out then do u but don get carried away with then names in the dont touch me cuz i rlly dont want to remember that im a female.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

dont say a word (rl quick poem/convo)

dont say a word
k
quest k
come closer as i pll u near me
breathe the air i wish to share
as i touch ur face n u put ur hands around my waist
our love becomes 1 heart
let me lay u down
massage ur neck
shoulders
back
lower
lower back
ur ass
thighs n inner thigh
ur calves and the arch of ur feet
reverse with kisses and nibbles along the way up
as i caress ur curves with my lips
slowly i open u wide
to enter ur inner thigh with my fingers
i want to place them inside ur warm and flowing pleasure and spell my name on the walls
A
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t
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iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
n
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t
t
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i want to spell my name with the tips of my fingers around ur clit
j
a
s
m
i
n
e
to then taste the juices flowing spelling our last name with every dripp
P
o
l
l
a
r
d
P
i
n
a
as u clench ur legs tight around me while i spell out my name giving u xstacy
i spred ur legs and slowly gesture myself above u
placing small kisses all over
until i
reach the arch of ur back
i bite u and ur shiver
again only closer to ur neck
until i reach ur ear lobe only to whisper
tha i love u dear while inserting 2 and movin u
to the beat of our hearts

whats ur aim? aka rooms

ok pick one room to start off with plzzzzzzzzz
quest: the bathroom
quest: ok
gimmie 3 mins and u tell me when my time is up
quest: kk
quest: yay!
the water in the shower made the bathroom hot and steamy, kind of like how u make me feel. so i walk into the bathroom and close the door behind me. quietly i undress my self and reach for the curtain to pull back. i admire the curves of a beautiful blk women standin before me washin away the dirt from the mans world after a long days work. i climb in grabbin her wash clothes and rinsing away the bubles from her body revealing her firm breast and hardened nipples . again i squeeze the water out of the cloth revealin her navel. i turn her towards me to kiss ...
quest: finish!
quest: how u jus gonna stop
cuz u said aye
lol
i said 3 mins
quest: cuz ur time was up
thas y i stopped
quest: continue
say plz
quest: palease
ok
hold on
3 more mins n then stop me
quest: k
quest: ahem
i turn her towards me to kiss the nape of her neck. i work my way down kissin her softly on her collar bones suckin gently on her chin lips and breast, still trasing her body with the cloth until i reach her navel. i begin to softly trace the outside of her belly button ring flickin my tongue in and out of her navel. She laughs softly...slowly i take the cloth and ..
quest: continue!
3 mins
runn it across her body and between her legs i spread them and keep it gentle slightly passing the lips and the clitoris. wider i spread her legs and drop the cloth and clean her wit my lips. sucking on her lips seperating her va jay jay(had to make u laugh) to get to the clit. back n forth i vibrate my tongue on her clit accassionaly sucking the juices tha are flowing from .........
quest: lol
quest: dork
lmao
hahahha
quest: continue
hold on
quest: ok
ok ok
quest: thats waaaay more than the 3 min rule
quest: lol
quest: u knew i was about to chew u up
hahah
im bout to start ppl keep aimin me
quest: ok
quest: hmmm
flowing from her sweet and juicy pussy. in and out...i place my tongue inside her warmth grabbing her and pullin her closer so i am able to taste all of her. i play with her pearl faster and faster makin her juices flow faster and thicker. i pause and grab her ass pullin her closer to me glidin my tongue from her hole to her clit ever so slowly adn softly til i hit the top of her lips and she squirts again i do it until she can bare no more her legs quivering and for the very last time as she grabbin on to the curtains i place my whole mouth on her vag and suck all the flowin love from her . on my way back up i grab the wash cloth and put more body wash in it lathering it up to rewash this beautifil women who is now sweatin ...in the steam of hot water..as i beggin to wash her body once more i turn her back towars me and suck
quest: carry on
lol
nope
quest: nooooooooooo
quest: thats like puttin ur finger in my pussy
quest: and taking it out

omg
hahahhahhahhahhahhahahha
damn i could of woke the house up with tha laugh
quest: lol
quest: ahhaaaaa
okok
pick another room
quest: lol
quest: kitchen
quest: ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
okok
quest: lol
wait imma grab a drink
brb
quest: k
ok
3 mins
in the kitchen
quest: go
quest: run!
lol
shut up
quest: NO!
quest: aheeem
so my girl shani in the middle of cookin dinner when i come in the door from work and i walk by smack her ass n kiss her on the cheak n say " tha smells good wha chu makin" she gonna have the nerve to say this is for me i got none for u" oh fucks no so i say u for rl as i put down all my shit and run up behind her play fightin and shes like hell yea ..ill show u none ..i told her as i grabbed her aggressively and pushed her against the wall suckin on her neck and bhind her ear
quest: lmao
quest: thats realistic
quest: and funny
quest: go ahead
ok
im goin
quest: la la laaaa
hittin her spot n then suckin her bottom lips until she is no longer tense and fightin me shes now weak and in the palm of my hand so i i start to untie her robe and suck on her shoulder blade and making a kissing path to her breast . suckin tenderly and agressively on her left nipple and playing with the other. i pick her ass up and place her on the counter leanin her back placin kisses inbetween her breast followin a path towards a world of ecstacy... i lift her ass up a lil and remove her boy shorts letting her bush free lol..nosa..i spread her legs and stand back lookin at her pussy and then again from another angle..she smacks me n says wha chu doin
quest: wait i gotta read from the beginning
quest: cuz i was laughin
quest: at the first part
quest: lmao
quest: ur retarded
lmao
wait till u read this part
rdy 3 mins
quest: ok
i lift her left leg and and begin to kiss every inch of her . inch by inch towards her inner thigh each kiss becomin harder and longer until i reach the middle. and i stand back and look at her glowing pussy , i suck my bottom lip and lean her back placin both legs on my shoulder and begin to tickle her ass with my tongue(neva did this b4) i stop and dig out a pube off my tongue ...nosa... (i cant stop laughin) i move up and dig deep in and out of a cave flushed by liquids until i am flouded i then place my whole tongue on her vag and move like the ocean until i reach the clit playin agressively as if we were tongue wrestling and i win when i feel the leggs around my shoulders quiver and moans become increasingly louder
damn i wasnt suppose to send tha
lol
quest: lol
quest: too late
hahahha
quest: lmao
quest: smh
hahahaha
i can turn u on and make u laugh
makes my day
lol
quest: lol
quest: finish!
nooooooooooo
uest: why not?!
she nutted end of story!
quest: lol
hahhahahhahaha
quest: jerk
lmao
quest: u cant just get it wet
quest: and walk away
its called blue balls
lol
quest: i kno
quest: and i hate it
yes i can done to alot of ppl
quest: lol
quest: i can imagine so
its like findin ur spot and touchin it but then i say ooppps i have to go
lol
quest: lmao

quest: oh shit
quest: well im not them
quest: so finish!
lol
fine
quest: we didnt go to the bed
oh next room????
quest: livingroom
ps she neva ate her dinner
lol
quest: she really didnt
quest: what a waste
naaa girl left overs!!!!!
its a recession girl don waste food
quest: tru tru lol
ok
go twit imma do this one all in one
after she nuts all in my mouth i walk away n head to the livin room cuz im full idk bout her. i hear the water runnin in the sink so i assume shes gettin a glass of water. after i turn the tv on (family guy) i hear the fridge. i think nothin of it and continue to watch tv. again the fridge opens and closes so im like wha is this girl doin? about 5 mins later my girlw alks in the room naked with a cup of ice sits it down on the table and decides to straddle me..."u hot mami?" si mami she says to me , leans forward and kisses me now u kno i wanted to throw her off of me cuz i was watchin family guy but i said imma b nice. so i kiss her back passionately for a while and she went right for my spot ..she started suckin rl hard on my neck bitin me and kissing me like its been yrs since we seen eachother..bitch wasnt i jus eatin u for dinner 10 mins ago? lolna so n e way i push her back n pull her closer her so i can nibble on her nipples suckin one and then movin to the other, she leans back and pulls me forwars to take my shirt offand undoes my bra. she gets up and climbs on top of me layin me down on the couch kissin me and teasing my nipples with hers
quest: LOL @ si mami
quest: lol
quest: i like doin that
quest: nipple teasin
lol
hahaha
quest: lol
yo y did i forget to put deodorant on and i still smell fresh as hell
lamo
quest: lol
quest: thats GOOD
i kno rt
u want more
quest: yess
ight
i grab her waist and position her as if i had a strap on . she leans forward to tease me with her tongue. down she licks kisses and sucks the skin around my belly botton until she reaches the top of my jeans she undoes my jeans and pulls them from the ankles off and i reach out...along with my jeans came my boi shorts and to her surprise i tackles her ass and layed her down suckin on her ceck and kissin her body from head to town her body shiverin from the warmth of my lips and the clod of my tongue which holds the ice Shani grabs my ears and pulls me up before i can rech her pearl and kisses me until the ice cbe in my mouth melts to water. i stradle her and we kiss for a moment.she throws me back and repeats the same to me only to spead my legs and let the ice cube fall from my navel to my bottom and her chasin after it. until she reached my pearl only she placed her thumb on my whole and her tongue on my pearl simultaneously pleasuring me sendin shivers throughout my body and i began to moan ..faster and deeper she entered me hittin my spot drivin me wild suckin and biting and lickin every spot ..for a few moments i could breathe until i exhaled and my body losened up . shifted her and positoned her on top of me clit to clit where she road me slowly grind hers against mines juices mixing and flowing untilt eh friction became unbearable for the both of us and we both again exhaled
quest: ...
lol
they passed out in eachothers arms on the couch neva made it to bed
family guy played in tha back
quest: i bet
quest: that shit jus exhausted my mental
lol
quest: if only it was REAL
quest: i'd be KNOCKED
lmao
from wha i did all the work
lol
quest: exactly
quest: lol put me to bed
good shit

Friday, August 14, 2009

suicide and relationships

imma b real with yall n put my business out there cuz i honestly dont care what you think i want you to learn from my experience. i also know not many cant take someone else's experiences and learn from them (to each its own right?) well read and i hope u learn...

I created a friendship with someone out of pure laughter and from there it deepened. there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. the problem begins when u love too hard too quick and when your not expecting it. I told her im completely different from the rest and she ignored it(i kno everyone says it but im tellin the truth, im from Saturn they say lol). After 4 months of talking and laughing she said "i love you" by accident. what eva i let it go. Sooner or later we made it official and everything changed. Mind you this was a long distance relationship.

I began to notice signs of jealousy. (im a friends person i love and live for my friends ,always have and always will). when it was time for me to be with my girls she never understood i needed "me time". She thought becuz she got holl@ (hollered at) everyday all day she began to think it happened to me 2. She also thought i would betray her like her X did to her for so many years. THE BIGGEST PROBLEM; opening a wound that has not yet fully healed. I constantly told her over and over again "i use to be a dog and when im single all hell can break lose but when im with someone its me n u no1 else in the world" she didnt listen. for the 1st 3 months i cried every nt about something different; from what i could and could not call her to me going to the club every wkend or even what i wear or simple text messages...

As time went on i realized i couldn't deal my love stopped growing, i became less interested but when i told her i need space to think she flipped. then i said fuck it all im thru it became worse. Secrets about bi-polar, manic depression and so on running thru her family came out. I and i knew it was goin to get ugly so i went on DL and asked for advice and some gave it to me. All in all i had to break up with her i was stressing and even if she had an episode i was half a country away and couldn't do anything about it. After we broke up and i didn't call her for 3 days i received horrible emails, aims, texts u name it i got it. callin me out my name sayin she wants ha shit back..then the calm b4 the storm came sayin she was sorry and saying tha she jus wanted me to be happy but she cant live without me and if she cant be with me then shes good. Shes gonna text me lata "will i go to her funeral?". LAWD i was crying for ova 5 hrs cuz i don want to be guilty, or the reason for her committing suicide.(there's so much more to the story) how would i feel after her mom calls me n says oh i found the note saying ur the reason y she killed herself? How am i to deal with a situation like this???
Thank goD for MimSqB cuz if it wasnt for her i would still b crying right now. This convo with the X lasted 5 hrs when it hit 5 am i texted her n neva got a response. Its now one day later and i received no phone calls texts or anything from her mother or her. I jus pray she is alright. I just want you to learn from my experience; plz take advantage of knowledge and learning the signs of different types of depressions, behaviors and characteristics in a person. I know you can act any way with one person and another with a different person. Eventually you will see the truth evolve from within. One can only act for so long before they become restless. Do not rush into a relationship becuz it FEELs right. We all know that you can live with someone your whole life and still not know everything about them...

lv ur thoughts

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Inhale the aroma created from the adrenaline runnin thru ur body ...my body
Close ur eyes and lean ur head back exhale all the tension within ur body... my body
As I press my lips against ur skin and trace the curves of ur body breathe deep
When I touch every nerve ending and ur body tenses release tha soft moans from ur tender lips
Let me circle ur breast with my mouth and play with your nipples
Left.. right.. right to left ..both @ 1nce
Arch ur back as my hands caress u from ur shoulder towards the bottom of ur ass
Spread ur legs and place 1 on my shoulder while I taste the sweet juices flowing from ur pussy
Let me enter u wit my tongue n then 1 or 2 fingers
As I rap ur legs around my waist and carry u to the bed kiss me deeply bite my top lip ..suck on my neck
Pull my hair just enough to turn me on and create space for u to gently suck on the nape of my neck
As i lay u down and press my body ..and ur body..together can u feel my heart beat ...ur heart beat become one
...IM LAZY lol ill finish this lata

Monday, August 10, 2009

Ms MfknSAssY n MzDOMs 20 RuleZ to relationship.take notes bitches!

1. all hands on activities between you and others must be deaded including when drunk
2. all excessive flirting is dead, unless its with your significant other
3. any Xs comin around for no reason at all is suspect and is subject for yo ass to get cussed out
4. if you have a baby mama/father, dont be 'chillin'. thats how the lil creature u got now was created.
5. dont come out ur neck talkin about family disorders in the middle of the relationship #imaneed for u to tell me while we talkin so i kno wha im dealin with ahead of time
6. just cuz we together dont mean u can slack up on ur game, dont stop butterin me up or buyin me double cheeseburgers cuz u already booked me. thats petty
6.5 n jus becuz we together don mean tha i wanna see u in sweats and ur pjs n yo head not done all the damn time cuz u gettin to comfy with my ass
6.9 but dont expect me to look like im bout to go to the club everytime i come over
7. don b tryin to bring all ur shit to my crib lil by lil cuz the pumm pumm is good and u wanna hit it every nt
8. and unless i invite you, dont be knockin at my door. i might be with my other bitch.... get out ur feelings im messin wit u
9. dont think for one second cuz me n my besty fucked once n she thinks ur cute tha WE are gonna have a 3sum ..fantascy distroyed!
9.5 You dont see me askin ya moms to join in now do ya? didnt think so.
10. imma need u to let all them bitches in ur phone know im wifey n not ur boo if u can make it past rules 1 thru 10
11. Dont call me a nickname that you call any other broad.
12. dont introduce me to ur family members as yo best friend imma need you to come out the fuckin closet already b4 i drag u out if its not noticable already tha ur a flaming homo
12.5 and if you're still in the closet, you might as well stop now
13. imma need u to step ur game up cuz that bitch right therre *points to the nearest dope chick* is bout to take ur spot cuz u slack
14. dont dress like a bum when we go out, cuz you WILL get left like i don know u
15. don try to show off like ur shit dont stink jus cuz we in front of ur pplz i will repeat i WILL put ur ass on blast
16. worst case scenario... we break up. dont try to put me out on blast, cuz i'll whoop yo ass, AND put u out there. smut
17. dont call me out my name cuz u got caught tryin to smut around n u mad cuz game is wak! y am i with u in the 1st place..oh yea u made it thru rules 1 thru 15
18. dont tell me after the fact that u dont do somethin sexually. da fuck u wait so long to tell me for?!
18.5 fuck it imma get u drunk n make u do it n e way lmao
19. while you're sittin here readin all your rules i prolly be done left you for someone better.
20. i shouldnt have had to write these rule in the first place but i have to teach u so u respect the next bitch KEEP READING
20.5 and you better know how to read...AND take notes. witcha slow ass
21. now if yo ass had jus fucked me and ate my pussy right, shut the fuck up when i said u was wrong and took me out for no reason at all we would still be together
22. Matter of fact. just #killurself if you think we gon get back together either.
22.5 forget we eva met but keep these rules n mind
23. but if u did read the rules, and followed them, and we STILL broke up.... *shrugs* what the fuck happened? lol
24. oh well on to the NXT bitch

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

U wanna kno me

im dif..point blank let me prove it to u

i didn't come here willingly, he begged for her love and gave her 18 yrs of joi that turned into pain when i seen the she devil who i assumed was a goddess...i am not a product of my environment i stand alone strong and willing to learn ...i am blunt yet shy as hell, speak strong words of wisdom yet i love to embrace tha child inside of me...in touch with my very own sexuality...i dont judge i embrace...society wants me to be like them i strive to be the opposite of her and go beyond him! she depend on others to support her lazy ass while i lrn to breathe, grow and flourish on my own...

i will make u love when u didnt think u would eva again, i will tell u what u dont want to hear, i can make u think beyond the depth of ur subconscious and i will become ur drug.

im real 100% me= friendly loving caring honest loyal flirty a sassy motha fucka.
im 23 & mixed= cape verdean, irish, and brown (i hate when ppl say im black) lol.
Im country from Durham,NC currently in Boston for now. im a entrepreneur; i have goals i don plan on being lazy & not workin but instead moving ahead in life. I have a head on my shoulders, im too deep to b shallow ya digg!